tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34522064322698550602024-02-21T03:13:00.537-05:00From the world of Helena MalheurConfessional style poetry and proseHelena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.comBlogger73125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-32033322176732437632022-05-06T00:15:00.027-04:002022-05-06T01:09:21.498-04:00Mother’s MoonYou are always near <div>Appearing and disappearing </div><div>At a moment’s notice </div><div>Glorious as
our moon </div><div>Undulating in the darkness </div><div>Erasing the day’s woes </div><div><br /></div><div>I see you everywhere </div><div>And nowhere </div><div>Slipping in and out </div><div>Of day dreams</div><div>Pretending to be memories </div><div>Your reflection is my reflection </div><div>My eyes and heart my own </div><div><br /></div><div>And I miss you
mightily </div><div>Every day — </div><div>And as I navigate a world </div><div>Traveling backwards </div><div>Sometimes I
wonder </div><div>What you would say </div><div>And if we will ever be ok </div><div><br /></div><div>For my mother
</div>Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-78077345275837602252014-07-26T17:20:00.001-04:002014-07-26T17:20:30.076-04:00A storm can only last so long<div>It's a beautiful world</div><div>Look up, look around;</div><div>Be aware of your own presence.</div><div>See the master at work;</div><div>You are the creator.</div><div>Imagine it and it will be yours.</div><div><br></div><div>Shapes will become clearer,</div><div>And sound more resilient</div><div>Than the winds that change</div><div>And discourage your flight.</div><div>A storm can only last so long.</div><div>The sun is waiting to rise</div><div>With your spirit, your heart.</div><div><br></div><div>Paint the world with love,</div><div>Punctuate your steps</div><div>With enthusiasm </div><div>And happiness will follow.</div><div>Tip your hat to sadness;</div><div>Bid it adieu.</div><div>It's time to own your fate. </div><div><br></div><div>2014 Helena Malheur </div>Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-86991878646550115552014-06-09T10:33:00.001-04:002016-02-12T08:16:21.579-05:00Right Is Never Right<div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I heard those five words even before we met, </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Long before I watched the mist settle </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">On the white lilies you planted in our backyard --</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Tearing the milky fog blanketing the air.</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I stood in the rain waiting for the storm. </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I never asked you to stand in the rain. </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Stay under the sun. Sleep with the moon. </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Scoop the stars from the sky </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">And throw them away; I don't need light. </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I am damp as the grass beneath my feet, </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Long after the rain subsided; </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Bones soaked in melancholia, </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Even you can't wring it out of me.</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">But she, the little lily white bud, bathing in your sun --</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">She must look up at you, in awe, </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">With her big green eyes and dark brown hair. </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I imagined her, ever since I saw the moon light </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Seep through the moss covered trees in your front yard.</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></div><div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">And I still refuse to listen to the right voices singing </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">The right songs. I listen to your voice. </span></div></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I listen to those five little words that sunk a ship. </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">"I don't love you anymore."</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Because wrong is so right it feeds on denial,</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Like a parasite. and right is never right in the wrong light.</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">In this cricket hour, the remembering hour,</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I must forget to remember regret; and once more, </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Abandon a girl more malleable than me. </span></div></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">P.H.</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">© 2014 Helena Malheur </span></div>Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-76190786999668175462014-05-26T22:59:00.001-04:002014-06-02T21:20:18.925-04:00Let Go<div><div>Leap fearlessly into the green horizon.</div><div>Take a deep breath and feel the brevity</div><div>Of this melancholy hour; the battle</div><div>Will be over soon, as soon as you let go. </div><div>Let go, because mutiny against reality is futile.</div><div>Let go of absurd conjectures of possibility.</div><div>Life is happenstance; it is a wonderers paradox.</div><div>Let it be erect in its truth, its horror. </div></div><div><br></div><div>2014 Helena Malheur </div>Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-46629340148022192152014-05-24T11:21:00.001-04:002014-05-24T23:15:07.385-04:00Forget my heart, my song<div><div>Seduced by the charms of hope, </div><div>I, dressed like a clown, skipped my heart</div><div>Into another beautiful lie -</div><div>A wonderfully exquisite lie!</div><div><br></div><div>And as the stars rest upon my face, I wish, </div><div>The night would lull me to sleep in peace,</div><div>To forget, to seek nothing and need</div><div>Nothing of this absurdity, this life. </div><div><br></div><div>No, never-mind despair, its never far; </div><div>Yet its eager to retreat into its cave. My will </div><div>Does not abide by the rules of my heart.</div><div>It is the possibility of your return that it fears. </div><div><br></div><div>Let these words of love, these gravid words</div><div>Stuck in the back of my throat, inherit </div><div>From my despair, the need to depart;</div><div>Let it be so, that you forget my heart, my song. </div></div><div><br></div><div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">© 2014 Helena Malheur </span></div></div><div>P.H.</div>Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-49370405251578530222014-05-18T14:43:00.001-04:002014-05-26T23:03:25.125-04:00When Dusk Departs<div><div>The moon hangs, watching us </div><div>With casual curiosity, its pale blue light </div><div>Peeking through trees ornamented with moss.</div><div>Breeze scented with honey suckle</div><div>Tosses your hair, my dress.</div><div>My heart undulates with lithe clouds </div><div>Dancing over your lips --</div><div>The dizzying aroma of coffee and </div><div>Strawberries lingering on your breath;</div><div>I drift into your mesmeric gaze. </div><div><br></div><div>Palpable heat hovers in the air</div><div>While the night sways with music; </div><div>The silvery rhythm invades my limbs, </div><div>Frees my voice to speak the truth.</div><div>You have unearthed my gullible skin</div><div>Leaving behind infinite reveries </div><div>Of unquelled yearnings for love.</div><div>My fears and doubts forgotten,</div><div>I long to rest my pride at your feet.</div><div><br></div><div>But I feel your mind retreat, as if </div><div>To escape the noise of the past. </div><div>I watch as a look of disdain barges</div><div>Upon your face; I know this look, I fear it. </div><div>I have to believe this is not your heart speaking.</div><div>And so, my heart and I lay against your chest </div><div>Unfettered by tomorrow's qualms. </div><div>And when dusk departs, I will </div><div>Sit quietly with my dwelling heart,</div><div>Imagining the trees, the honey suckle breeze,</div><div>Our fervent breaths, and your topaz gaze </div><div>Shimmering in the light of the moon. </div></div><div><br></div><div>© 2014 Helena Malheur </div><div>P. H. </div>Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-20756061204635343832014-05-10T22:41:00.001-04:002014-05-12T06:26:36.556-04:00Say What You Mean<div><div>Tell me everything;</div><div>There is nothing crueler </div><div>Than ambiguity.</div><div>Say what you mean. </div><div>Tell me your wants,</div><div>Your needs, your fears --</div><div>I promise I will not abuse it. </div><div><br></div><div>Say what you mean.</div><div>Tell me everything,</div><div>Because I will give you </div><div>Everything.</div><div>I will give you </div><div>Every ounce of me.</div><div><br></div><div>Don't make me guess </div><div>Your unsaid words </div><div>Or decipher your looks </div><div>And coded lines.</div><div>Say what you mean.</div><div>Say everything, say nothing,</div><div>But never tell me lies.</div><div><br></div><div>Say what you mean.</div><div>Don't make me wait;</div><div>That is even crueler.</div><div>There are no contests,</div><div>No winners or losers.</div><div>Dream of love with me.</div></div><div><br></div><div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">© 2014 Helena Malheur</span></div></div>Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-34638420497354560282014-05-04T21:14:00.001-04:002014-05-11T06:23:56.300-04:00Happiness Is<div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Happiness is to see you,</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">To feel your hands around my face,</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Your eyes holding my gaze for</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Longer than I remember to breathe;</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">It is to sense fragility in your eyes.</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Happiness is to hear you,</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">To hear my heart rising and falling,</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Its fast rhythm pulsating </div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">With the sound of your voice;</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">It is to never need to speak. </div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Happiness is to feel you,</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">To be nestled in the curves </div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Of your arms, the strands of my hair</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Stretched out on your chest;</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">It is to be in the comfort of silence.</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Happiness is to know you,</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">To trust your heart, to be brave </div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Enough to say I am yours. It is</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">To have you as my waking thought </div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">And my goodnight kiss.</div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">© 2014 Helena Malheur</span></div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></div><div style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></div>Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-18393203370662694632014-03-13T22:18:00.001-04:002014-05-25T07:43:30.346-04:00What Could Have Been<div><div><div>I have always lived inside.</div><div>Once, I dared to go outside, </div><div>knowing you'd slip in, unnoticed --</div><div>colorless as the air you drew </div><div>from my lips when we kissed.</div><div><br></div><div>But I imagine more than I see;</div><div>I imagine truth where there are lies </div><div>and lies where there are truths.</div><div>And I'm too terrified to trust my eyes.</div><div><br></div><div>So I ran to a familiar place; now,</div><div>I'm tucked inside my hollow cave, </div><div>crowded by silence and </div><div>suffocating from too much air.</div><div><br></div><div>Yet, I feel safe in my sadness.</div><div>because I know how to live with it;</div><div>It has been my companion for years.</div><div>And I couldn't outlive another betrayal.</div><div><br></div><div>Still, you skulk around my mind </div><div>stirring nostalgia and regret, </div><div>for having abandoned </div><div>what could have been true.</div><div><br></div><div>You'd flung open my heart</div><div>before I knew yours.</div><div>I sit here, a quiet coward,</div><div>waiting to forget you. </div><div><br></div><div>© 2014 Helena Malheur</div></div></div><div>M.W.</div>Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-51272451253585798262014-03-08T12:25:00.001-05:002014-03-08T12:25:51.480-05:00If<div>If I wanted to be needed,</div><div>It isn't to be the object of desire;</div><div>It isn't hard to be lusted after.</div><div><br></div><div>But if I surrendered to lust</div><div>It isn't that I lived to be sinful;</div><div>It is because I was derailed.</div><div><br></div><div>If I needed to know someone </div><div>Who needed to know me,</div><div>It does not make me a dreamer.</div><div><br></div><div>And for he who can make my heart </div><div>Play rhythms I cannot pronounce,</div><div>I will forever long to be the one.</div><div><br></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">© 2014 Helena Malheur</span></div>Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-15825215754715266002014-02-08T01:05:00.000-05:002014-02-13T23:59:45.882-05:00I Am Human<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
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But it is in the shadows, it is in the gray </div>
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That one’s truth and character are tested.<br />
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Like people smile for no reason;</div>
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Hiding their disinclination for the unfamiliar –</div>
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Like animals inspecting their quarry.</div>
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I do not wish to be normal</div>
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One action at a time -- </div>
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(perhaps I have a touch of grandiosity).</div>
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Either way, I know it is a passing ill. </div>
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And I will carry labored hours,</div>
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In nights longer than tangential sermons</div>
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Of elderly aunts;</div>
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Awake in the wee hours of darkness,</div>
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Whimsy nearer my bones than my heart,</div>
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I ask and answer maddening questions.</div>
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I have lost the world in sixty minutes</div>
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And claimed to have found it</div>
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I have reached the end of the world at midnight,</div>
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Returned to the beginning </div>
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To find that the world is round, after all </div>
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(to my bitter disappointment).</div>
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And no one will dare to break my heart;</div>
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But sometimes, I want it broken</div>
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Just so I can feel something and know</div>
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I am human.</div>
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Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-24662876342163434752013-10-02T23:22:00.001-04:002014-05-25T07:43:04.912-04:00Suffused in Sunshine<div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">A subtle smile appears </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Across my face</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Throughout the day;</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">I needn't a reason </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Other than </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Thoughts of you. </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">I steal time with you </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">At work, at lunch, the store...</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Anywhere and everywhere </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">I'm able to daydream.</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">It is as though </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">I am suffused in sunshine</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Despite the rain and clouds.</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">You'll find me reminiscing </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Over vivid moments --</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">The delicate nature </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Of your touch,</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Your fingers tracing</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">My back, my shoulders, </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Your eyes fixed on mine.</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">I think about your kiss;</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">The way you hold me,</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Nearer than </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">I remember being held.</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">I think about your smile </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">And how your laughter </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Transforms you into a boy.</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">I think about your eyes;</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Even you can't tell me</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">What color they are.</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">And I, long to breathe the air</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Expelled from your lips</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">While we sleep --</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Our bodies intertwined,</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Not a sliver of space </span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">Between us;</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">I crave the electric joy <font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"> </font></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">That surges through me</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">When I open my eyes</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">To find you next to me. </span></div></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">© 2013 Helena Malheur</span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">L.A.</span></div><div><br></div>Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-28616551128317634322013-10-01T21:23:00.001-04:002013-10-02T06:29:12.389-04:00Mercy<div>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Can you hear it -</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">the quiet creeping in</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">beneath the streets?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Trees stand alone</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">casting long shadows;</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">silence echoes</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">in the hollow street.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I watch a spider squirm</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">trapped in its own web;</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">It asks me for mercy.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">How am I to give mercy </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">when I haven't accepted it? </span></div>
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<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">© 2013 Helena Malheur</span></div>
Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-19436429343127162452013-09-27T18:17:00.001-04:002014-09-28T22:44:28.606-04:00The Present<div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">Anticipation is a drug, </span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">lifting me higher and higher </span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">with every minute, every hour,</span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">I wait for you. </span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">The present is reality</span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div style="line-height: 150%; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">glaring at me with sobering eyes;</span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">it warns my heart to step lightly. </span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">It reminds me never to forget</span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">other times like this.</span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">But, when I see you, things are easy.</span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">There is no past, no future.</span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div style="line-height: 150%; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">There is only the present. And we</span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">know how to live in the moment.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">I carry you with me, </span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div style="line-height: 150%; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">after you go, leaving behind </span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div style="line-height: 150%; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">the faint scent of your cologne; </span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">it is even more apparent </span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div style="line-height: 150%; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">when the breeze tosses my hair.</span><span style="line-height: 150%;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; line-height: 150%;">© 2013 Helena Malheur</span></div>
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Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-43550175174190692192013-09-20T13:11:00.001-04:002014-05-25T07:44:13.359-04:00You and I<div>
<span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 24px;">You and I,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">We were extraordinary --</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">We were unstoppable;</span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">But we left our doors ajar</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And the world barged in.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">We carried on </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Treading on a tightrope </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Living </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">A disillusioned life --</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">One that was not to be or</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Perhaps, it needed not to be. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">We were bystanders </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">as despite and devotion </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Coexisted as one --</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Perplexed by one another,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Yet insisting on one another.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Perception and reality</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Converged and diverged</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">With each action and reaction,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Stretching the bounds </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Of our fidelity</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Until it was no more.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif;">© 2013 Helena Malheur</span></div><div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, serif;">J.B.</span></div>
Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-10440607250793725852013-09-19T06:10:00.001-04:002013-09-30T23:29:39.819-04:00I Am None the Wiser<span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 24px;">I loathe fate </span><br>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">for it has fondled</span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">my heart </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">in unconscionable ways.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Age has not done me</span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">any great justice either.</span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I am none the wiser </span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">than when I was a toddler.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I speak semi-eloquently</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">and can hold my liquor;</span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I doubt that qualifies</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">as anything significant. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I love restlessly</span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">and hope endlessly.</span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The cycle never stops. </span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Like a drunken rat in a maze</span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I never arrive at the prize.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">© </span><span style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;">2013</span><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"> Helena Malheur </span><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;"> </span></span></div>
Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-43506642142965063862013-09-15T22:22:00.001-04:002013-09-29T21:48:46.882-04:00Know the Unknowable<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Is your heart un-breakable?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Can I count on it </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">to be gentle and kind (even at your worst)?</span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Can I know it, admire it -</span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Can I depend on its fidelity?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I would let you see me</span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">if I could believe you will;</span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">believe that if I let go</span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">of reluctant sentiments</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I may be free to be free. </span></div>
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<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.294118); line-height: 24px;">
<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Is your love undoubtable?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Can I feel the fire burn</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">without fear it'll burn out?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Can I see it, hear it, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">trust it with certainty? </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I would let you love me</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">if I could believe you will;</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">believe that if I learned</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">to be and to breathe,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I may know the unknowable. </span></div>
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<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">© 2013 Helena Malheur </span></div>
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Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-41813855690678639152013-09-13T16:18:00.001-04:002014-05-25T07:46:19.457-04:00I Don't Know Your Voice<div class="MsoNormal" style="background: #FEFDFA; mso-line-height-alt: 13.5pt;">
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">I don't know your voice.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">I know the depth of your
gaze,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">the resonance of your
touch,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">the linger of your kiss.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">You are perfectly awkward <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">and sly in corridors;
you're <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">ever so present, tender, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">in singular moments; <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">still, you are absent <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">as the sun after dusk. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">And though I am one who <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">practices guarded abandon <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">to near perfection,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">it is no match for your sway.
<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">I felt my power dissolve <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">in a solitary moment -<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">an unspoken moment -<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">where you held our ground.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">Now, I sift through this
urge <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">to hear your words, to feel
<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">the temperate climate<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">under your chest, to listen
<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">to your breathing <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">in sleepless, unforgiving
nights.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">I wait, clutching dreams <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="color: #333333; line-height: 115%;">with enough </span><span style="color: #333333; line-height: 18px;">fantasies </span><span style="color: #333333; line-height: 115%;">and </span><span style="color: #333333; line-height: 18px;">fears</span><span style="color: #333333; line-height: 18px;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">to begin and end<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">a hundred love affairs.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">I shall learn to forget you<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">when the moon goes home. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">© 2013 Helena Malheur</span><span style="font-size: 8.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-size: 11.0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; line-height: 115%;">L.A.</span></div>
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Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-22195391839513044652013-09-07T23:14:00.001-04:002013-09-29T21:49:18.627-04:00Doubt Wins<div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Fear
<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">brews
<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">in
silence; <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">doubt
settles <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">like
dew at dawn,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">sweating
on everything.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">But,
the need to be sought<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">is
grander than the frustration<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">of
betraying one’s own thoughts.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Hope
rides along, reluctantly;<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">it aims to mollify a fixation,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">submitting to an impulse, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">an
itch. It always ends <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">with
a balancing act <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">of
love and life <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">in
unrest. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Doubt
<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">wins. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> <u1:p></u1:p>©
2013 Helena Malheur<span class="apple-converted-space"> </span></span></div>
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Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-40392337479419835202013-08-30T22:20:00.000-04:002013-09-29T21:50:29.171-04:00Life Lived on My Terms<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">If I had a dream, I’d dream</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">I am still, silent as the night. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">Dawn’s always approaching; <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">it comes 'round with a life <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">too fast to be seen, heard, or felt. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">And living has become a frill – <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">for those who don’t do <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">something worthwhile. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">And regret looks on <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">from a not too distant future, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">wagging its finger in caution. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">I want to live for moments;<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">but there are moments <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">which stalk the memory –<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">replaying like viral images –<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">and there are those which vanish.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">The vanishing sort, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">are the ones I wish I could keep; <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">but it has never been up to me. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">I want to believe that time is an illusion –<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">a momentary ill that can be cured. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">I want to taste this bitter sweet world, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">and feel comfort in the calm <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">of a life lived on my terms. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">© 2013 Helena Malheur </span></div>
Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-31863984505919190152013-08-23T08:03:00.002-04:002013-09-29T21:50:11.538-04:00Blue Hues<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">I’m surrounded by blue hues –<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">even bluer than the heart I carry. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">Of all the hues, his blue<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">after another – <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">imaginary as they may be – <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">have fogged my awareness. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">I hang onto vague gestures, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">dangling on the edge of <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">I remain a victim of happenstance. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-61295097679107353522013-05-28T23:57:00.002-04:002013-09-29T21:50:56.601-04:00Free From an Ordinary Feeling <div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The incandescence of innocence<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">clouded in inhalations of smoke;<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">A narrowing room, a sinking ceiling<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">fingertips retreating under palms<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">arms nearer to the heart.<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The perfume of death, visions of <o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">musty shores, damp catacombs --<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">truth tangled inside a stationary tongue,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><u1:p></u1:p>arms ever in
entreaty, in yearning.<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Hear the voice of God;<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">feel rapture elevate sound, the hues –<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><u1:p></u1:p>glistening seas, a
dream <o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">free from an ordinary
feeling.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Helena Malheur</span><span style="font-family: Cambria, serif; font-size: 13.5pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-23716350971174939212013-01-20T08:27:00.001-05:002013-09-29T21:55:41.495-04:00It’s still too dark in here<div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I don't need to be desired,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><u1:p></u1:p>nor do I seek
admiring eyes;<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I walk with purpose, with dignity,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><u1:p></u1:p>as if every step is a
promise<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">to something good – an endorsement<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">for a life well-preserved. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">But this path is a cruel circle;<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">There are no forks to ponder<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">or bridges to cross.<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I’d never been nearer to a dream<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">yet felt so far from feeling elation. <o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The only constant in my gut <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">is the pool of angst standing silent,<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">steady, stagnant, and stubborn. <o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">It's still too dark in here.<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I carry a hollow heart,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">an insatiable longing.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><u1:p></u1:p>And like an empty
cave,<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">my core echoes, my body raw<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">with need for warmth –<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">broad shoulders and gentle arms –.<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I was loved, once; but <o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">he stifled me out of my own life. <o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Perhaps that was not love.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-84984229385935315122013-01-05T00:15:00.000-05:002013-09-29T21:55:57.314-04:00Blue is a good color<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I have yet
to find a bottomless sea;</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Inevitably
all things float up to the surface<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">as if
summoned by God himself. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Even the
grand ocean with its vast secrets <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">is powerless
against blemished memories. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Though God has since given me courage <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">to walk on this tightrope, this life, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">madness is
nearer now; and it walks</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">not amongst
the shadows lurking</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">behind a
fate of my inheritance,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">but alongside me in broad daylight. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">It lies next to
me as I fall asleep<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">and talks nonsense
in the middle of the night. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">It burrows my ever longing heart <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">widening the wounds
that fester inside. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">No matter, I
shall take its outstretched hand<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">and walk
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">nor a whimper
uttered out of my pale lips.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Blue is a
good color; <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">it was my
father’s color and now it shall be mine. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3452206432269855060.post-22537043516887684782012-12-19T23:31:00.001-05:002014-05-25T07:45:46.804-04:00You are not the object of desire<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">You are not the object of desire, you see.</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">You are the symptom of lack of reason, of judgment.</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Or it is possible that you are a symptom of circumstance.</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">You are the idea of a man – a man who may</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Be unlike the men who constantly disappoint. </span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Therefore, I absolve you of this vile inheritance</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Of contempt; you are pure until you defile yourself</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">With words which yield no fruitful sentiment</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Or you fail to follow with action which fulfills their promises.</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I doubt you will submit to such imprudence.</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br></span>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">You may become aware of this desire I hold;</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">But, it may be too late for this weary traveler.</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I will have tired of longing for longing’s sake. </span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And when the symptom of desire subsides,</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The only things left will be the prospect of the future</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And the memories of regret that shape it. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">© 2012 Helena Malheur</span><div><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">D.O.</span></div>Helena Malheurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12306591221090287590noreply@blogger.com0