rested them on my head like a crown;
I was your queen.
The rest, you rearranged over my heart --
the meeting place
of bees, lovers and butterflies.
We were the envy of strangers.
Like a Monet, distance was our ally.
They glanced at us,
they wanted to look closer but
we kept moving
further and further away from them
because that was how we were meant to be seen.
You see that glamorous frame?
It is nothing but cardboard.
And the picture
you believed is a masterful work of art
is just a million puzzle pieces --
a million puzzle pieces that don’t fit
together,
glued together.
I used to talk for hours without saying anything.
I spoke of nothing because you did not hear me.
With every word left unheard,
every little piece mislaid and ground to ash
and the lies arbitrarily falling into the
cracks
of the broken vase,
there was nothing left to restore.
there was nothing left to restore.
The flowers had wilted. The crown had fallen.
But you saw what they wanted to see.
You asked me to hold it together one more
time.
Were these words of wisdom or folly?
I knew these pieces did not fit together.
And one cannot put together shattered glass
and call it a vase again.
© 2012 Helena Malheur