Let Go

Leap fearlessly into the green horizon.

Take a deep breath and feel the brevity

Of this melancholy hour; the battle

Will be over soon, as soon as you let go. 

Let go, because mutiny against reality is futile.

Let go of absurd conjectures of possibility.

Life is happenstance; it is a wonderers paradox.

Let it be erect in its truth, its horror. 

2014 Helena Malheur 

Forget my heart, my song

Seduced by the charms of hope, 

I, dressed like a clown, skipped my heart

Into another beautiful lie -

A wonderfully exquisite lie!

And as the stars rest upon my face, I wish, 

The night would lull me to sleep in peace,

To forget, to seek nothing and need

Nothing of this absurdity, this life. 

No, never-mind despair, its never far; 

Yet its eager to retreat into its cave. My will 

Does not abide by the rules of my heart.

It is the possibility of your return that it fears. 

Let these words of love, these gravid words

Stuck in the back of my throat, inherit 

From my despair, the need to depart;

Let it be so, that you forget my heart, my song. 

© 2014 Helena Malheur 

P.H.

When Dusk Departs

The moon hangs, watching us 

With casual curiosity, its pale blue light 

Peeking through trees ornamented with moss.

Breeze scented with honey suckle

Tosses your hair, my dress.

My heart undulates with lithe clouds 

Dancing over your lips --

The dizzying aroma of coffee and 

Strawberries lingering on your breath;

I drift into your mesmeric gaze. 

Palpable heat hovers in the air

While the night sways with music; 

The silvery rhythm invades my limbs, 

Frees my voice to speak the truth.

You have unearthed my gullible skin

Leaving behind infinite reveries 

Of unquelled yearnings for love.

My fears and doubts forgotten,

I long to rest my pride at your feet.

But I feel your mind retreat, as if 

To escape the noise of the past. 

I watch as a look of disdain barges

Upon your face; I know this look, I fear it. 

I have to believe this is not your heart speaking.

And so, my heart and I lay against your chest  

Unfettered by tomorrow's qualms. 

And when dusk departs, I will 

Sit quietly with my dwelling heart,

Imagining the trees, the honey suckle breeze,

Our fervent breaths, and your topaz gaze 

Shimmering in the light of the moon. 

© 2014 Helena Malheur 

P. H. 

Say What You Mean

Tell me everything;

There is nothing crueler 

Than ambiguity.

Say what you mean. 

Tell me your wants,

Your needs, your fears --

I promise I will not abuse it. 

Say what you mean.

Tell me everything,

Because I will give you 

Everything.

I will give you 

Every ounce of me.

Don't make me guess 

Your unsaid words 

Or decipher your looks 

And coded lines.

Say what you mean.

Say everything, say nothing,

But never tell me lies.

Say what you mean.

Don't make me wait;

That is even crueler.

There are no contests,

No winners or losers.

Dream of love with me.

© 2014 Helena Malheur

Happiness Is

Happiness is to see you,

To feel your hands around my face,

Your eyes holding my gaze for

Longer than I remember to breathe;

It is to sense fragility in your eyes.

Happiness is to hear you,

To hear my heart rising and falling,

Its fast rhythm pulsating 

With the sound of your voice;

It is to never need to speak. 

Happiness is to feel you,

To be nestled in the curves 

Of your arms, the strands of my hair

Stretched out on your chest;

It is to be in the comfort of silence.

Happiness is to know you,

To trust your heart, to be brave 

Enough to say I am yours. It is

To have you as my waking thought 

And my goodnight kiss.

© 2014 Helena Malheur